Sometimes I just need a quiet space.
Long after everyone else has gone home.
No one else around me.
Dog asleep beneath my desk.
Trying to put words on a page.
The old fashioned way with pen and paper.
Reaching back through the day
Pushing my way through a crack in my everyday amour
To see beneath the surface
Of what you see when you see me
Of what I see when I look in the mirror.
To catch a glimpse for a moment
Of who and how I really am.
May I strive…
To listen carefully before I speak.
Pause long enough that I might see clearly.
Look closely enough that I might understand.
May what I do and what I say…
Create some space for grace to slip in.
This morning I sat in our backyard with our dog.
I sipped my coffee while she sat at attention keeping watch over the yard for any stray squirrel or bird that might venture into her domain. As I watched, her nose began to twitch as she used her sense of smell to search the yard and beyond for that which she could not see.
It made me wonder…
How do I search out and come to know what may be there, but which my eyes cannot see?
Today I just sat.
Taking time to look at the fall colors splashed across the mountain in front of me. This may have been my last chance this year to see the colors like this. Tomorrow the forecast is for rain. Then, in another few days, the colors will be faded to brown and the leaves will be gone leaving the trees to get ready for the winter snow.
It made me remember a time when I visited a friend in Colorado.
The backdrop to where he lived was the Rocky Mountains.
But as I watched it seemed like everyone there went about their business no longer allowing their breath to be taken away by the splendor of the mountains at their doorsteps. I decided then, just as I decided today, I do not want to be that person.
So today I just sat.
Long enough to allow the beauty to push its way past my impatience and into my life.
Some of us are old enough to remember this break through in computer technology. WYSIWYG. What You See Is What You Get.
But I think WYSIWYG applies to much more than just computers.
If you look for kindness, you will see kindness.
If you look for a reason to be afraid, you will find a reason to be afraid.
If you look for goodness, you will see goodness.
If you look for a reason to hate, you will find a reason to hate.
If you look for something for which to be thankful, you will find something for which to be thankful.
If you look for ugliness, you will see ugliness.
If you look for beauty, you will find it.
Too large measure, we decide.
In the face of all of that and more, today I am going to do two things.
First, I will acknowledge the suffering and pain and heartbreak that surround so many and, to the extent that I am able, allow it it break my heart as well.
Second, I am going to pay close attention to the goodness which brushes up against my life today which will never make the headlines in the news.
The gift of a grandchild.
The support that surrounds a family in a time of need.
The moment I have to pray. Please. Thank you. Please. Wow.
Food being prepared to share with others.
I don’t want to ignore or to turn away from what is the reality of so many, but at the same time I don’t want to forget the goodness and grace which brushes up against our lives each day.