I have been thinking alot about this verse from Psalm 90 in the Bible.
“Teach us to number our days that we may gain a heart of wisdom.”
I am more aware than I have ever been that my days are numbered.
Not that I am sick or that anything is wrong.
Just that I am getting old. (A luxury not afforded to all, I realize.)
And, very aware I am much closer to the finish line than I am to the starting line.
So, I get the first part of that verse.
That my days are numbered.
It is the second part of the verse which I ponder.
The “heart of wisdom” part.
What does that look like?
And feel like?
And act like?
I have no clue.
In the larger scheme of things, here is what I feel…
And, what I think I know.
Two things.
First,I am more clear than ever about how God intends the world to be which is starkly different than much of what we see and read in the news. Second, I am more aware than ever of my own shortcomings and ignorance. I remember thinking 30+ years ago that when I got to the age I am now I would have most of life (or at least my life) figured out.
God laughs.
“You fool.”
I am not sure either of the two things I feel and think I know constitute wisdom so I guess there is still work to do while there is still another day.