Today my heart hurts.
And words fail.
As they always do in moments like this.
What words can heal heartbreak?
Or keep sorrow at bay?
For them or for me?
None that I know of.
And for the heartbreak I feel
My hurt is only a fraction of theirs.
A depth of pain I cannot begin to imagine.
Today I live with the hurt.
And the anger.
And the knot in my stomach.
Tomorrow I will not have that luxury.
Unless I am willing to have it happen again.
And again.
And again.
Yesterday a 15 year old boy walked into his high school with a handgun and shot and killed two classmates and injured 18 more. It was the 11th school shooting in 2018 and we are not even at the end of January.