Ghosts.
They are real, all right.
At least for me.
They most often appear with their haunting presence in that murky time between sleep and waking up pulling back to the surface old memories of foolish acts and broken trusts and overlooked or misplaced words.
But sometimes they leave the darkness and haunt my days.
Triggered by an ordinary word or a passing glance.
Long ago becomes this moment.
Yesterday becomes now.
Their presence unsettles me
Making me cringe.
Sometimes shiver.
One came again last night.
Sometime just before 6:00 AM.
I got up this morning thinking about them
And why and how they continue to haunt me.
I can’t undo what has been done.
Or unsay what has been said.
But maybe the task before me
At this stage of my life
As I grow older
Is to make friends which that which haunts me.
I share your experience. This is what I have learned so far. In my energy work I have found that when a memory rises to the surface whether in a dream or just a random thought, it is a signal that there is some emotional remnant being held in my cells somewhere in my body that is reminding me that I am still carrying it. For me, it is the body’s way of asking, “Are you ready to let this go now? I have been carrying this for a long time. I would like to declutter and be free of this old energy”.
Now being older and wiser than the date of the memory, I can look with some detachment and thank my body for this awareness. It is an awareness that our bodies sacrifice themselves for our conscious mind to hold onto emotions we were unable to process at the moment no matter how long ago. Whenever a memory arises, I realize it is an opportunity to have gratitude and give thanks for what my body has been doing for so long. I tell my cells how much I love them. Love heals. I then clearly give the body instructions to release the emotional energy behind that memory. It is no longer needed. I have personally found this process very freeing. Scientists are discovering more and more about the power of our consciousness and the power of intention to change physics, change our bodies, promote healing and create reality. Check out Lynne McTaggert’s work and her book, “The Power of Eight”.
Hi Anne,
Thanks for the reflection of my Ghost’s post. I will try what you suggest as I try to “make friends” with those memories which revisit me.
Hope you and yours are all well. p